Crossroad

Being alone in my room, lying on my comfy bed while thinking of the future; frightens me. I know for a fact that I have to face the bitter truth and plan the next few steps in my life as an undergrad.

Yes. I know what I want in life. 

Yes. The things I want in life are simple.

Sadly, I haven't figure out a way to get there.

Many a times I tell myself, 'Go with the flow and just do it!' And now I am at the crossroad. It's the time to decide and make a move. Currently, I'm facing that typical situation of 'The Road Not Taken'; a poem by Robert Frost. There's two roads diverged in a yellow wood. Well, in my case there are at least FIVE roads diverging from where I am standing. 

There are certain things in life whereby if you fail or you simply decided to do all over, it is fine. Well, this ain't that situation. It's not a matter of life and death, if you will; but it is a decision that will shape and mold MY future. 

Yes. The future is exciting.

Yes. The future is overwhelming. 

Yes. The future is scary. And being me, I am afraid and worry about the unknown. 

Yes. I worry for no reason at times to the point I freak myself out. Call me a worrier if you wish to.

STRESS is a 'friend' of mine right now. And STRESS has this ability to pile up on me. Many things are happening to me. Some are pretty shitty and some are just there to destroy me. It's emotionally tiring and physically I am beginning to grow eye bags. Then there is this fella called TIME who's the best friend of STRESS, and its duty is to make the world spins faster before I could even get anything done!

Each day I remind myself that what ever decision I make, I'll have to give my all and make the best out of it to my best ability. With that, at least there's a guarantee that I won't regret not trying. After all, even God will not be able to help you if you don't help yourself.

Objective: To Improve

Throughout the year of 2011, I was in a state of trying to figure out exactly what I want in my life. Relationship wise, to career wise and most importantly what would make me happy. Been through my industrial training and I have managed to get a better picture of adulthood. Been talking to seniors and colleagues on what really matters in life. It was something I needed.

So for now I have some short term plans in mind. Short term as in less than 5 years (so don’t ask me where do I see myself in 5 years). This year will be the year where I have to improve myself. Take everything in. Generally, I’ll strive to be a better person and a more wholesome person. I have been told or realised; my weaknesses as a person. Friends who were kind enough or daring enough if you will; to point out my weaknesses, I cherish you. To improve will be my objective. I guess I need such friends. So be sure to continue what you do and please compliment me when I get it right. =)

*Prays* Hopefully within the upcoming 5 years, opportunities will come my way. And that I will be able to realise these opportunities; so that I will seize it and make the best out of it. May all the influential people continue to stay in my life (you guys know who you are). =)

'Hectic' Is the Word

This semester I foresee myself running around in order to get things done. Even before the semester officially starts, I was already back in KL to have a meeting with my committee members about the upcoming Masquerade Night. This event alone is already beginning to fill up all my empty slots on my daily planner. =(

And a new semester isn't helpful at all as my subjects get tougher with every semester. Yeah...yeah..this statement is kind of redundant. But if your an undergraduate, you'll get the idea~ To top it off, this semester will be the time for me to apply for my industrial training. Cracking my head where to apply to, getting all the paperwork done(resume, cover letter, etc.), attending interviews, and lastly praying a company would hire me as their slave.

Imagine putting all these together with the other usual stuff I do every semester. It's hell of a work load alright!! Sigh~ a good time management is what I really need. And the thing is I'm just bad at it. Mind you I am a procrastinator. Well, this semester is going to brush up my time management skills for sure!! Also, I am relying heavily on 'The Secret'. =)

Just One

Yes. It's a whole new year once again. I've noticed many people posting their new year resolutions. As usual, a new year resolution list will begin at number one and continues on to two, then three; and the list goes on. Well for me, this year I am going to list down just one item on my new year resolution list.

Yan's 2011 New Year Resolution:-

1.) To always practise THE SECRET. (it's a book by Rhonda Byrne)

Yup. That's it. My new year resolution list. Simple. Precise.

Like everyone else, my pre-resolution list is actually a longer one than the above. However, once I started listing it down; it took me 2 minutes before I decided to just go ahead with just this ONE new year resolution.

After reading the book, my understanding is that the universe is SUPPOSE to be able to manifest all my desires as long as I understand The Great Secret of Life which is the law of attraction. So, guess I have nothing to lose. I'll just believe in the law of attraction and be thankful every day for it.

p/s: this book is highly recommended. =)

Christmas Here I Come

FINALLY. I'm done with my exams. I think this semester I did put in a lot more effort than the previous one. I'm feeling confident this time. Shall just wait and see. =)

For now, I'm just going to enjoy my holidays. I know I'll be having LOTS of plans. My daily schedule for this holiday is filling up FAST! So if anyone wants to date me, let me know ASAP. *wink*

Am really looking forward to be back in Taiping. My peeps and I are gonna partay till we're all high!! Here's the season to be jolly, fa la la la la...la la la la... This is how excited I am to be going back!

A few friends of mine who's at overseas couldn't make it back for Christmas. Don't worry, you guys will be missed dearly. Hope you guys will have fun too during Christmas. =)

MERRY CHRISTMAS

&

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Lucky is the Word

I'm the
luckiest girl
in many ways that
no one can ever imagine!!

December Wish List a.k.a. Christmas Wish List~

Woohoo!! It's the time of the year again!! Yes it's December; and that would means Christmas is just around the corner!! When Christmas is just around the corner, that would means I've got a whole lot of things to do! So here's my wish list for the month:-

1.) Have a the strength to sail through my finals.
2.) SALES SALES SALES=SHOP SHOP SHOP.
3.) A Christmas celebration in Taiping.
4.) Baking!!(Ng Shea Yuin, better be prepared for me to burst into your kitchen)
5.)Finish reading 'The Secret' by the end of December. (Am already half way through)
6.) For 2011 to never come.

There. My wish list for the month of December. All of them are logical enough to be fulfilled, except for one maybe. Oh well, I'm just being hopeful. =) Alright, since number 6 is invalid here's number 7 to minimize the 'damage' of number 6.

7.) 2011 will be a year where I'll always have the strength to face any obstacles in my way.

There. Now the list is complete. Next list to come would be...NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS.





p/s: Christmas songs are already being played on my Media Player. Christmas deco are already filling my mind. Can't wait to see the deco in the malls. =)