Crossroad

Being alone in my room, lying on my comfy bed while thinking of the future; frightens me. I know for a fact that I have to face the bitter truth and plan the next few steps in my life as an undergrad.

Yes. I know what I want in life. 

Yes. The things I want in life are simple.

Sadly, I haven't figure out a way to get there.

Many a times I tell myself, 'Go with the flow and just do it!' And now I am at the crossroad. It's the time to decide and make a move. Currently, I'm facing that typical situation of 'The Road Not Taken'; a poem by Robert Frost. There's two roads diverged in a yellow wood. Well, in my case there are at least FIVE roads diverging from where I am standing. 

There are certain things in life whereby if you fail or you simply decided to do all over, it is fine. Well, this ain't that situation. It's not a matter of life and death, if you will; but it is a decision that will shape and mold MY future. 

Yes. The future is exciting.

Yes. The future is overwhelming. 

Yes. The future is scary. And being me, I am afraid and worry about the unknown. 

Yes. I worry for no reason at times to the point I freak myself out. Call me a worrier if you wish to.

STRESS is a 'friend' of mine right now. And STRESS has this ability to pile up on me. Many things are happening to me. Some are pretty shitty and some are just there to destroy me. It's emotionally tiring and physically I am beginning to grow eye bags. Then there is this fella called TIME who's the best friend of STRESS, and its duty is to make the world spins faster before I could even get anything done!

Each day I remind myself that what ever decision I make, I'll have to give my all and make the best out of it to my best ability. With that, at least there's a guarantee that I won't regret not trying. After all, even God will not be able to help you if you don't help yourself.

Objective: To Improve

Throughout the year of 2011, I was in a state of trying to figure out exactly what I want in my life. Relationship wise, to career wise and most importantly what would make me happy. Been through my industrial training and I have managed to get a better picture of adulthood. Been talking to seniors and colleagues on what really matters in life. It was something I needed.

So for now I have some short term plans in mind. Short term as in less than 5 years (so don’t ask me where do I see myself in 5 years). This year will be the year where I have to improve myself. Take everything in. Generally, I’ll strive to be a better person and a more wholesome person. I have been told or realised; my weaknesses as a person. Friends who were kind enough or daring enough if you will; to point out my weaknesses, I cherish you. To improve will be my objective. I guess I need such friends. So be sure to continue what you do and please compliment me when I get it right. =)

*Prays* Hopefully within the upcoming 5 years, opportunities will come my way. And that I will be able to realise these opportunities; so that I will seize it and make the best out of it. May all the influential people continue to stay in my life (you guys know who you are). =)